moving on

We found out on friday that our lil' love bug is not going to come back home to us. Her mom has decided to keep her, i must say that i cannot blame her for making that decision. I know i would never let her go if i had the choice. I thought this was going to be much harder. Right now i am doing surprisingly well. The waiting seemed to be the hardest part, knowing that our lil' love bug is not coming back home is sad and not what i wanted to hear but i am happy to have a decision. I really want to be able to move on, my wish is to be able to adopt a child and if it can't be our lil' love bug than i am ready to move on and get a new placement. I miss her so much and i am hoping we will have a chance to see her and have a relationship with her in the future. I hope we will see her soon..............