Grrrrr.......

Grrrrr........that is how this post is starting, you know it's not going to be an uplifting one! We took our lil' love bug to her mom last night. She did not want to go and wanted to stay with us. I can't imagine why she didn't want to spend the night in a hospital room with her mom and the new baby. duh. and i can't imagine what is going through her poor little brain. I think she is just so confused and she wants so badly to stay with us where she is taken care of and can be a little girl. She doesn't want to have to take care of her mom and her sister and now her baby brother. She wants to be where the grown ups in her life will put her needs first and where she can play and cry and laugh and throw a fit just because she is a little girl and trying to figure out what the hell is going on in this world around her. She shouldn't be responsible for making her mom feel loved, to keep her from being lonely and to help her take care of the younger ones. SHE'S 3 YEARS OLD! Give the baby a fricken break!!!
Mom texted me this morning "____ was throwing up again last night. We can't get the baby sick, so she can't go to your house on Friday" SERIOUSLY!?!?! You stupid cow! She threw up last week after being at our house for a couple days and she threw up last night after spending 5 days with us. hmmmmmm. if her mom was any kind of a mom and if her mom REALLY knew our lil' love bug like i do, she'd know that our lil' love bug throws up every time she is stressed out and is going through traumatic time. duh, again!
Our little girl is so scared and confused. I haven't even had a chance to talk to brian about this yet but i think we are going to have to cut down on our visits with her. I DO NOT want these visits to stress her out. She needs to know that she is going to be living with her mom and not us. I will continue to pray that she will eventually come home to live with us but for now she needs to know that her place is with her mom. I am going to do what is best for our lil' love bug. i am not going to be a source of stress for her, she gets enough of that from her mom and her family. I feel the need to continue some sort of visits though. She needs someone looking out for her and i will not let these people harm my lil' love bug! I will continue to keep my eyes open and watching out for her!